The Last Days are here, prepare for the end of the world.

Are you prepared for the end of the world, for the last days? For some reason people feel that they still have a whole lifetime or two to live and enjoy their new houses, new cars, new play things and vacations. Which I am all for them, but when that is all we focus on, then it is bad, because these are the last days before the end will come, and how will we spend these last days is what counts.

Why do I think these are the last days? Are you not sure if these are the last days? Even the bible states that in 2 Timothy 3:1 "But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3 without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5 having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people." 

AS you can see we can tell when it is the last days by the kind of people we see surrounding us. Every where you go, at church, at work, at school, what kind of people surround you. There was a recent trend that you have to learn how to love yourself, or you can love others... so not biblical. Because in the bible it says, romans 6 "13 Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness." NO where in the bible it talks about loving yourself. The only thing it mentions is love your neighbor as yourself. But that does not give us an order to go pleasure yourself, and learning to love yourself, by doing what ever bring you pleasure, to learn how you should love your neighbor. 

NOw is the time to prepare, to get strong in the Lord, now is the time to love God, not yourself. God is still waiting, He is still close by, dont want for him to turn his back on you.

 A lot of things will be happening all around us too, like it states In Luke 21:11

"There will be great earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven." 

The clouds are gathering, the storm is brewing, it is almost here, prepare yourself to withstand all the storms of life, devastation and calamity, by being in Jesus. By loving him alone.

So I am sure a lot of people will agree with me that yes, we are living in the last days, and the end of the world is upon us, how will we live these last days. I know we still have to go to work, and do our daily life, but how do we spend our free time, do we increase in the knowledge of God, or increase our bodily pleasure?  

Pursuit of God 10 years later.

Time is flying, if you can believe it, I started to write in this blog about 10 years ago or so, and looking back, I was reading my old post about pursuing God which is still powerful to me today. God is so good. He is everlasting, He is never changing. Even now as I write these words about our amazing God, tears well up in my eyes, because He has done so much, so much in my life in these 10 years. The only thing that remains the same is the goodness of God, of constant ache for Him, a constant need of Him, because He is the one who remains faithful and forgiving, and loving and never changes. God is everything in our life, from our marriage, to our children, to the weather, to our house that He provides, to the food we eat, and the health we have, everything is through Him alone, we are nothing without Him.

As I look back, I realize how much God has helped me, how much He carried me through all the pregnancies, through childbirth, through babies, and into teenagers. Now my 22 month old is a sassy 11 year old, and I have 3 more children after her. Having 6 children is still unbelievable to me. Wow. Really? Yes, they are all mine, and I wont change it for the world. Even having my 2 last babies, later in life, I am already 41, but I have a 5 month old, I still feel such love for the little babies, such blessings from their little kisses and hugs. God is good. He has blessed me extremely, He is faithful.

In conclusion I want to point out that it is not me who is pursuing God, but God is the one who is pursuing me un relentlessly, every time I forget and go side tracking, He guides me back, back to Himself. God is good. Did I already mention that? He is.

How to stay sane in a crazy world we live in right now.

We all know how crazy life gets sometimes, but lately, especially in 2020, it's been very stressful and scary at times. Knowing that life gets hectic, and very unpredictable we need to have a stable foundation in our life to stay strong no matter what happens. 

Jesus is that foundation. He is our strong hold, he is our saneness, He is our light when it's dark around. He is our everything. I love it, that I can turn to Him in any situation, in any need, with any question. He is my answer. 

He can be your answer too. He can be your guiding Light, and  your loving Friend. Come to Him, and just asking Him to help you in any situation. I know He will come through for you. He loves you, that's why. 

Flowers and seeking God.

 When you are feeling down, feeling sad, there are some things in life that will cheer you up. The first is talking to God, He understands all our feelings. The second thing is smelling the flowers. Every spring we get to smell the sweet honey smell of orange blossoms, they do wonders for uplifting the mood.

 I bet everyone has smelled the wonderful smell of a delicious rose. Sweet, perfumed, with a hint of spice. God did make everything beautiful. God does love beauty, wonderful smells, and the pleasure of watching plants and people grow.

 So when you are feeling down, feeling sad, struggling from certain problems or illness, cry out to God, and when you see a beautiful flower, know that is for you. For your comfort and joy.

Life.

What is life in general? It is a fast moving train, with occasional stops here and there. I am sure we are all super busy, with work, home, children, and church, but then comes a time when you glance out of your window and wonder what life is all about, why are we truly here? What is the sense of hurry and busyness? Life is what you make it, it could be either sweet and fun, or sad and demanding, something we put a lot of limitations on ourselves and our families, sometimes we try to put a lot of burdens on our selves, what she should be doing, and how our family should look, and how we should dress, and how we should act. But really, who are we trying to impress here? Is it someone else. I read somewhere that no matter what you do, and how you act, there will always be someone to criticize. There is just no way in making every one happy. The only true thing is to make God happy. If we live for Him, then no matter what happens, or what people say, it is truly no that important, when you know you did the will of God. God does not want us to be so busy with every day life, that we don't have time to notice the beautiful sunset, or laugh with your kids, or snuggle with your husband. Yes, I am sure that there are things that need to be done, but sometimes we think that some things just have to be done, we ourselves make the rules, the limitations, the burdens. And then we wonder why we are so unhappy, so worn out, and so bored. God made life beautiful, lets stop the craziness around us, and enjoy a nice time alone with God, with nature, with you little ones, with the love of your life.

When walking through the wilderness of life.

Psa 63:1 A Psalm of David, when he was in the wilderness of Judah. O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. Psa 63:2 So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory. Psa 63:3 Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. Psa 63:4 So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands. Psa 63:5 My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips, Psa 63:6 when I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the watches of the night; Psa 63:7 for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. Psa 63:8

Sometimes our life is so hectic, so busy, so parched from all the many things we need to do and to accomplish. Sometimes we feel that we are walking in this wilderness of life, a season of drought, sometimes of sadness and despair. We seek God, we look around, wondering if God can hear us.

Oh, how often I lose sight of God, of his promises, his goodness and grace. How often I feel sad, lost and not really sure where I am going or what am I supposed to be doing. Who am I as a woman? A wife, a mother, a working employee, lost in the traffic of everyday noise. I love it when God points his light on me, and I can see myself in his goodness, his power, makes me fall to my knees in gratefulness, in remembrance of who I am and what I am supposed to be. I am so glad God keeps track of all the minor details, all the wasted hours and all the flutter of every breath.

If only I would seek His holy face everyday for guidance and wisdom, maybe then I wont be struggling so hard in this wilderness of life. I love the psalm above which portrays the way David was seeking God. Thinking about him, pondering about his truths, clinging to God, thirsting for Him.... if only I could be like that... possibly then I can sing with joy. 

Are you seeking God?... seek Him and He will be found by you.

My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.

Prayer.

Dear Father in heaven,
Forgive me my Lord, my many transgressions, my many sins, my many unpleasant words and thoughts.
Forgive me all the things I said I would not do but I did, and all the things I said I would do but did not.
I want to find you my Lord and Savior, I need to rest in You...
I am seeking your holy presence each moment of each day, in each face, in each flower, in the clouds that rush over the sky, in the wind that blows into my face.
I listen for you soft voice in every song, in a birds melody, in a thunderstorm... in a quiet- empty church.
My eyes are looking for you... Oh where are you my friend, the lover of my soul?
My soul is starving for you, my God.
Like a child lifting up his arms to his parent, I lift up my hands to you my Father.
I need you, oh how I need you.
Where are you my Lord and Savior?
My heart is achy without you, and no one can fill me up, nothing can give me happiness or pleasure, like I find in only your presence. You are my strength and my light, you lift me up, and guide my feet on rocky ground. I cry to You in my sorrow, my tears are all in your hands, you hear my chocked whisper... don't forsake me now.... for I need you so. The road is dark and lonely without you. You are my true love, my true friend, my true Redeemer.
And then I find you, oh I am blessed.... I am loved, I am saved, I am one with Him. He is in me, and I am in him. My soul has found the true joy, the true happiness, the light and love.

Wait for His strength.

Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him;

Fret not yourself because of him who prospers in his way,

Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.

Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;

Fret not yourself, it leads only to evildoing.

For evildoers wil be cut off,

But those who wait for the Lord, they will inherit the land.

Yet a little while and the wicked man will be no more;

And you will look carefully for his place, and he will not be there.

But the humble will inherit the land,

And will delight themselves in abundant prosperity.

{Psalm 37:7-11}

It's good to know that our God is for us, even when everyone else is against us. Or sometimes it just seems like that. In knowing that we have a heavenly Father who watches our every faltering step is a comfort indeed. In knowing that my Lord will keep my children safe even when I am not there to watch them or to guide them is a relief. But often I forget that God is there for me at my every breath and every moment, I rely on my own strength and my own abilities, and how often I fall with exhaustion with not being able to make everything go just right.

Forgive me Lord for being impatient, for not relying and waiting on your strength and power. Help me learn as I watch You walk through my everyday life… and I thank you, for You fill me up with light and hope.

We are a temple of the living God! Wow!

What would you say if someone asked you if your house could be a temple of the Holy one for a week, or have your house visited by the living God Almighty? Can my house be visited by God? If He came for a visit, how would I act? I am sure I would be much sweeter to my children, and much kinder to my husband, I would invite others into my house so they can see that He, himself is in my house.... I would make special meals, and make sure its the most comfortable house around.

But what if my soul is the temple of God, my heart is his home? Will I act any different? Will I watch the same movies I watch every day? Or will I yell the mean words to my friends and family? Can we even imagine that? Its hard for me to do so.

Do not be yoked together with unbelievers.
For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common?
Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?
What harmony is there between Christ and Belial?
What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever?
What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols?
For we are the temple of the living God.
As God has said: "I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people.

Therefore
come out from them and be separate,"
says the Lord.
"Touch no unclean thing,
and I will receive you.
I will be a FATHER to you,
and you will be my sons and daughters,"
says the Lord ALMIGHTY.
{2 Corinthians 5:10}

Missing you.

I feel like I am missing something in my life. Missing a piece of my puzzle, do you know what it could be? I am trying to surround myself with Christian music, bible verses, bible reading and studying, praying, but still I am missing something, what could it be? Am I missing God as the creator, as the missing piece of my soul? The love of my heart is He, but I am not feeling satisfied, not feeling fulfilled. Is it even normal to feel like that? Can I let my life be dictated by the feeling I am having? Why do I feel like I am thirsty for the living water, am I not getting enough of the religious things. Maybe it’s not in the religion and the bible and the music, maybe it’s the presence of the real God?


Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits. Psalm 103:1-2

November is coming to an end... but fall is still here.

Beautiful color is knocking on my window... softly, that its easy to miss it, but when you do look up and see it, it knocks you down with the magnificent beauty of it. Our God is such an amazing Creator.

I love the beautiful gray limbs, stretching out in which direction, covered with an orange-yellow lace dress.

Thank you my Lord for such generous colorful beauty that surrounds us every autumn day... such amazing gift. The smell, the fresh crisp days are filled with You every where I look.

I am looking for You my Lord.... every where I turn I am surrounded by your love.... I cherish Your embraces. I worship you with a thankful heart, my soul sings You praises.

I need You.

I need you Lord. When it’s dark outside as I drive to work and only stars glister in the black sky. When it’s dark inside my soul and I can’t seem to find a way.


I need you Lord today, for you to touch me and hold me close. I need you when I feel sad and empty, when I feel confused and not sure how to make the right decision.

I need you Lord, when my little ones are sleeping peacefully in their beds and when they are jumping up and down on the couch. When they are whining, crying, and complaining.

I need you Lord, when my house seems like a hurricane of little bodies went through it. When my body is tired from a long day and my soul is weary from the lack of being close to you. I need you Lord. Come and save me.

If you seek -you shall find.

Sometimes I get so busy that I don’t have time to seek God. The business of everyday just seeps away at my happiness, my fulfillment, my reason to live. I look for the everyday things to fill me up, to make me happy. I look in all the wrong places. I want my husband to make me happy, I want my children to make me feel content and fulfilled. If things happen to prevent my spending time with my husband, or my time with my children is not as much as I think I need to have, I get upset, demanding, or just sad.


But God being the ever-loving father, is leading me down a road I have not walked on before. The road of happiness based not on earthy things. Not based on my family, friends or work. Nothing in this life can truly satisfy my craving for eternal peace, for joy inside my heart, for a smile on my face no matter the circumstances. When I base my happiness on Him, to know that only He can give me true joy, then no matter what happens in this life, I am content to be in his loving embrace.

You will make me know the way of life. In Your presence are fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forever. Psalm 16:11

God is in control no matter what!!

My life is hard sometimes. I am sure I am not the only one…The road gets tough. I complain, I cry, I rebel but nothing I do will change my circumstances until God chooses to change them for me. Knowing that He is the one in control gives me a sense of relief, of wonder and hope. For He is a loving father, and knows my hearts desire.

My health is not as it used to be. I work full time and my hearts desire is to be a stay at home mommy to my 3 little girls. My husband and I don’t see eye to eye on this subject. But knowing that it is in Gods hand, makes me feel better. He does have a bigger plan for everything in my life. I read a story somewhere recently about a lady who had cancer, and was told that she may not make it. She had lots of scars from all kinds of treatments, bald head from radiation.... in her story she said that everything that happens in our life is Gods way of teaching us to be better, stronger, and more christian in our walk with him. That every scar and every tear is a way for us to draw closer to God, to lean on him, to pray to him, for he is there for us no matter what. For everything that happens, there is a higher reason. A bigger plan that God unfolds.

I am learning to be content in every day life. With all its ups and downs. My most precious things in my life are my darling little girls, my husband, my health... and everything else are blessings that we are blessed with each minute of our life.

The other day I was dressing my 2 year old into a dress that my 5 year old used to wear, when she saw the dress she said to her sister.
-“you see Odelia, I used to wear that dress, now it got small, so you get to wear it, and then it will get even smaller and the baby will get to wear it as well.” Isn’t that just too cute?
I enjoy my little baby how she lifts her little chubby legs up in the air and lays there like that, tries to sit up …its hilarious. Kids are given to us as little blessings- to teach us more patience, to be more generous, less selfish, lets us be a better person, for we do try to model a better behavior so our kids would follow in our footsteps, as you know they copy everything...;)

I am so thirsty, thirsty for You.....

You are the living water...

'Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again,

'but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.' John 4:13

I want to drink the living water, so I will not be thirsty again...

Where are You?

We had some amazing days of rain, which we desperately need, the dry earth soaked up the moisture like a sponge, and as I was sitting in my garden my shoes caked with fresh mud, I wondered where God was.
I prayed for wisdom, and I prayed for Him to come and guide me, to be my Savior. But nothing happened, and as I sat staring at the little seedlings, that were growing, worrying that they would not survive the hard rain that we had, I realized that sometimes God needs to soak our hard hearts with moisture, so the seeds He will put in will be able to grow.

Later that day I was putting my little girls to sleep, and I was having a hard time in doing so, they were just so hyper and full of energy, and just would not go to sleep. They laughed, giggled, screamed, complained, cried, cried some more. They wanted water, then milk, then my toddler wet the bed, somehow, I have no idea how, but the diaper did not hold it. I got mad as I changed the bedding, changed her pajamas, and threw the wet diaper on the floor in frustration, which spilled all the wet smelly guts out on my carpet, just imagine my frustration mountain as I had to pick up every little wet shred. Finally they were in bed, and I went to put my infant to sleep nursing her in my bed, when I heard the oldest of two girls open her bedroom door as she announced loudly that she is going to the bathroom, the little one followed her, but instead of to the bathroom she opened my door where I almost nursed the baby to sleep, apparently my husband didn’t see them going as he was watching the news. That’s when I really got angry and screamed at the kids.

Later when I was finally able to go to sleep myself, I realized that God showed me my inner self, and how upset and angry I got. How can God live in my heart which was full of turmoil, anger. How can I feel His holy presence while I was a sinner. That actually made me happy, God wasn’t ignoring my prayer, He is here, He does want to live in my heart, and He is showing me what I have to change for Him to act in my life.

I prayed and asked for My Lord to help me overcome my anger. To feel peace, and to love my kids without getting angry and frustrated. Is that even possible?
I wonder what God will show me next, cant wait. :) :)

'Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.' (Ephesians 4:31) NLT
'Beloved , be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Your anger can never make things right in gods sight.' (James 1:19) NLT

Seeking God.

My Lord, where are you? My soul needs You. I need to find You.
‘O God, thou art my God; early will I seek thee: my soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is; To see thy power and thy glory, so as I have seen thee in the sanctuary.’ Ps. 63:1-2
This verse perfectly describes my longing for God.
But how do I find Him, where do I look? You’ll be amazed to know that I was born into a Christian family and went to church every week, was baptized, and married a Christian man. I even remember when I was a teenager I gave my heart to Jesus. So why am I looking for Him, don’t I know where He is? How can I not know, I am a Christian. I know that I need to read the bible to find the answers, so that’s where I will start looking for the Greatest God ever. When I was a teenager I remember feeling Him near me, so I know the feeling of having a relationship with Him, and I want it back. How did I lose it? I don’t really know, through all the years of working, being a wife, of having my 3 little girls, and finally looking around me, and I am alone, He is not near me anymore… and it’s a scary feeling, a lonesome feeling. I want to be near His holiness again, I want to feel His presence around me, His amazing love.
This is how I am on this quest to find my God, my Savior. Yesterday I asked Lord Jesus to guide me into His presence again, to feel His amazing love again, for Him to teach me about my life and to show me His Holiness. To make me His servant so I can be of use to Him. To tell you the truth I am really scared, because I don’t want him to touch my life, or my husband, or my children. But being a coward will not stop me from seeking the Lord, and I lay my all at His feet.
Maybe someone else is looking for a meaning in this life, looking for God, then maybe we can seek together.
It is raining outside my window today, and I pray for God to send rain for my soul, so it can bring forth fruit, and not be barren. (Did I tell you that I am scared?)
I was reading the Audrey-Caroline story, which touched me deeply. The story showed me how near God was to Audrey’s mom, how he is directing her life into His grand plan. I want to feel that too. His nearness, His holiness, His awesomeness, His guidance, His hand on my life. (But I am scared, and I don’t want Him to touch my kids. Or my husband.)
I pray for my Jesus Christ to help me overcome this fear I have and to guide me into his loving, holly Presence. Thank you Lord.