God is in control no matter what!!

My life is hard sometimes. I am sure I am not the only one…The road gets tough. I complain, I cry, I rebel but nothing I do will change my circumstances until God chooses to change them for me. Knowing that He is the one in control gives me a sense of relief, of wonder and hope. For He is a loving father, and knows my hearts desire.

My health is not as it used to be. I work full time and my hearts desire is to be a stay at home mommy to my 3 little girls. My husband and I don’t see eye to eye on this subject. But knowing that it is in Gods hand, makes me feel better. He does have a bigger plan for everything in my life. I read a story somewhere recently about a lady who had cancer, and was told that she may not make it. She had lots of scars from all kinds of treatments, bald head from radiation.... in her story she said that everything that happens in our life is Gods way of teaching us to be better, stronger, and more christian in our walk with him. That every scar and every tear is a way for us to draw closer to God, to lean on him, to pray to him, for he is there for us no matter what. For everything that happens, there is a higher reason. A bigger plan that God unfolds.

I am learning to be content in every day life. With all its ups and downs. My most precious things in my life are my darling little girls, my husband, my health... and everything else are blessings that we are blessed with each minute of our life.

The other day I was dressing my 2 year old into a dress that my 5 year old used to wear, when she saw the dress she said to her sister.
-“you see Odelia, I used to wear that dress, now it got small, so you get to wear it, and then it will get even smaller and the baby will get to wear it as well.” Isn’t that just too cute?
I enjoy my little baby how she lifts her little chubby legs up in the air and lays there like that, tries to sit up …its hilarious. Kids are given to us as little blessings- to teach us more patience, to be more generous, less selfish, lets us be a better person, for we do try to model a better behavior so our kids would follow in our footsteps, as you know they copy everything...;)

Grumble and complain.

What is the baby telling you? I dont like this, not one minute :)

It's easy to complain about how things are in your family, or how they are at work or at church or at school. But complaining won't change a thing. Neither will condemning or criticizing or preaching. What is needed where you are is someone who will be what they wish others would be - to lead by contagious example. (A passage from Gospel.com)


Is it OK to complain? Is it OK to grumble? To walk around upset, unhappy or depressed? Is that what God wants for my life? To be like a gray raining cloud, or a happy, warm sunshine? I know that a lot of people say that if I never complain, no one will ever know if its hard or troubling for me. That everyone has a right to complain, no one expects me to be strong and unbending. But then others tell me that its not right to complain, that God gives everyone according to their strength, and that nothing that happens in life is too heavy a burden. I wonder if there is a thin line between complaining and stating your burdens or troubles?
I believe if I am telling someone about my troubles, or hurts, or the heaviness of my heart it OK. For example if I say things like, I feel sad, I feel overwhelmed, I feel out of breath, that is OK to say. Or if I need help. But it gets into complaining field, when I start saying things like, I am always sad, I am tired of this weather, I don’t like anyone today, I am sick and tired of everything. I don’t like my car, I don’t like my house, my yard. When I start saying things like that, then I am in a grumbling zone, and God doesn't like it.

Am I getting this straight? I am getting confused myself. I wonder what the bible says about this?
Israel complained and was punished when they were going through the wilderness. God despised the grumblings, murmurings. Not being happy with everything they had.

Now the people complained about their hardships in the hearing of the LORD, and when he heard them his anger was aroused. Then fire from the LORD burned among them and consumed some of the outskirts of the camp. (Numbers 11:1)

In this desert your bodies will fall—every one of you twenty years old or more who was counted in the census and who has grumbled against me. (Numbers 14:29)

"Therefore I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit, I will complain in the bitterness of my soul. (Job 7:11)

You see, while Job complained in the bitterness of his soul, it was OK to do so, while Israel complained and was punished. I want to walk this fine line of complaining, and not grumble or murmur.