Pursuit of God 10 years later.

Time is flying, if you can believe it, I started to write in this blog about 10 years ago or so, and looking back, I was reading my old post about pursuing God which is still powerful to me today. God is so good. He is everlasting, He is never changing. Even now as I write these words about our amazing God, tears well up in my eyes, because He has done so much, so much in my life in these 10 years. The only thing that remains the same is the goodness of God, of constant ache for Him, a constant need of Him, because He is the one who remains faithful and forgiving, and loving and never changes. God is everything in our life, from our marriage, to our children, to the weather, to our house that He provides, to the food we eat, and the health we have, everything is through Him alone, we are nothing without Him.

As I look back, I realize how much God has helped me, how much He carried me through all the pregnancies, through childbirth, through babies, and into teenagers. Now my 22 month old is a sassy 11 year old, and I have 3 more children after her. Having 6 children is still unbelievable to me. Wow. Really? Yes, they are all mine, and I wont change it for the world. Even having my 2 last babies, later in life, I am already 41, but I have a 5 month old, I still feel such love for the little babies, such blessings from their little kisses and hugs. God is good. He has blessed me extremely, He is faithful.

In conclusion I want to point out that it is not me who is pursuing God, but God is the one who is pursuing me un relentlessly, every time I forget and go side tracking, He guides me back, back to Himself. God is good. Did I already mention that? He is.

Life.

What is life in general? It is a fast moving train, with occasional stops here and there. I am sure we are all super busy, with work, home, children, and church, but then comes a time when you glance out of your window and wonder what life is all about, why are we truly here? What is the sense of hurry and busyness? Life is what you make it, it could be either sweet and fun, or sad and demanding, something we put a lot of limitations on ourselves and our families, sometimes we try to put a lot of burdens on our selves, what she should be doing, and how our family should look, and how we should dress, and how we should act. But really, who are we trying to impress here? Is it someone else. I read somewhere that no matter what you do, and how you act, there will always be someone to criticize. There is just no way in making every one happy. The only true thing is to make God happy. If we live for Him, then no matter what happens, or what people say, it is truly no that important, when you know you did the will of God. God does not want us to be so busy with every day life, that we don't have time to notice the beautiful sunset, or laugh with your kids, or snuggle with your husband. Yes, I am sure that there are things that need to be done, but sometimes we think that some things just have to be done, we ourselves make the rules, the limitations, the burdens. And then we wonder why we are so unhappy, so worn out, and so bored. God made life beautiful, lets stop the craziness around us, and enjoy a nice time alone with God, with nature, with you little ones, with the love of your life.

Is your glass half empty?

The glass is empty, the glass is full. The soul is empty, the soul is full. What is your soul filled with?

Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. Romans 15:13

My life seems so busy lately, working, with so much to do, with chores to finish, dinner to cook, the never ending laundry... the list goes on and on. I get so tired emotionally and physically that by the time I get to bed I am so drained and ready for sleep. But my soul is empty, its feels lonesome, it feels like I am missing a piece of something. Its hard to fall asleep. It makes me remember that I forgot to pray, to praise, to emotionally connect with my God, that's why I feel like that. I feel empty. Nothing really filled my heart. I may try to fill my life with work, with people, with friends, with music, with new books, with my precious little children, even with church and other things... But if it is not with God, my soul feels like its missing a piece. Is that funny or what? Do you ever feel like that, like something is missing, a little piece of your heart? Have you ever personally felt being filled to overflowing with the greatness of God? Our God is amazing, He doesn't fill us with small bits, but fills our hearts with praise, with joy, with glory, with love, with amazing peace. Then you want to jump with the happiness, and it overflows to others... even if you are going through hard times, He still fills you with His understanding, and peace.

Dear Jesus, Clean my soul from the dirt of jealousy, bitterness, sadness, and despair. I wish to be filled with You my Saviour, to overflow with love, peace, joy and understanding. Help me come to you for a constant refill, for I am thirsty...and needy.

And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that you might be filled with all the fullness of God. Ephesians 4:13