Why are we sick?

Why is there so much sickness in our churches? Why do people who are close to us, like relatives and friends get cancer, leukemia and have heart problems? When we do get sick why do we run to the doctors and start taking medications right away, and many times the medication does not help and we get more sick, more weak, more depressed, and more alone in our struggle. Why?

I was listening to some sermon the other day, where the preacher was saying that most sickness is from a sin in our life. That if our heart and soul is lovely, pure and clean, then we don't get sick. But if we have unforgiving, anger, jealousy, or strive in our heart, we are open to any kind of sickness.

There could be a small truth to it, but I believe that also our health is determined in what we eat. If we eat a lot of junk food, lots of sweets, with corn syrup in it, and our foods are full of chemicals and pesticides, then our health declines. Our immune system fails us, and we get sick.

I guess if you are sick, try to change the way you eat but also check out your soul and heart. Do you have someone who you cant forgive? Don't let them make you sick. Stay healthy -forgive them.

Where are You?

We had some amazing days of rain, which we desperately need, the dry earth soaked up the moisture like a sponge, and as I was sitting in my garden my shoes caked with fresh mud, I wondered where God was.
I prayed for wisdom, and I prayed for Him to come and guide me, to be my Savior. But nothing happened, and as I sat staring at the little seedlings, that were growing, worrying that they would not survive the hard rain that we had, I realized that sometimes God needs to soak our hard hearts with moisture, so the seeds He will put in will be able to grow.

Later that day I was putting my little girls to sleep, and I was having a hard time in doing so, they were just so hyper and full of energy, and just would not go to sleep. They laughed, giggled, screamed, complained, cried, cried some more. They wanted water, then milk, then my toddler wet the bed, somehow, I have no idea how, but the diaper did not hold it. I got mad as I changed the bedding, changed her pajamas, and threw the wet diaper on the floor in frustration, which spilled all the wet smelly guts out on my carpet, just imagine my frustration mountain as I had to pick up every little wet shred. Finally they were in bed, and I went to put my infant to sleep nursing her in my bed, when I heard the oldest of two girls open her bedroom door as she announced loudly that she is going to the bathroom, the little one followed her, but instead of to the bathroom she opened my door where I almost nursed the baby to sleep, apparently my husband didn’t see them going as he was watching the news. That’s when I really got angry and screamed at the kids.

Later when I was finally able to go to sleep myself, I realized that God showed me my inner self, and how upset and angry I got. How can God live in my heart which was full of turmoil, anger. How can I feel His holy presence while I was a sinner. That actually made me happy, God wasn’t ignoring my prayer, He is here, He does want to live in my heart, and He is showing me what I have to change for Him to act in my life.

I prayed and asked for My Lord to help me overcome my anger. To feel peace, and to love my kids without getting angry and frustrated. Is that even possible?
I wonder what God will show me next, cant wait. :) :)

'Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.' (Ephesians 4:31) NLT
'Beloved , be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Your anger can never make things right in gods sight.' (James 1:19) NLT