Life in general... is it always busy?

Every happening, great and small, is a parable whereby God speaks to us and the art of life is to the message. (Malcolm Muggeridge)

I have been kind of busy lately.. My nineteen year old sister is visiting me from Missouri, and there hasn't been much time for me to enjoy my blogger friends. :)) Well life goes on, work, housework, laundry, cooking, gardening, decorating, and going on little family trips.. enjoying the beautiful weather we are having. I have been so busy that at night I get insomnia, with all kinds of thoughts swirling in my head, waking me from my dreams.

Some days I still fight the avalanche of depression, the darkness, the sadness... especially if I have to work long hours. Not believing in taking the anti-depressants I fall to my knees with the heaviness of my load and petition God to help me. To heal me, to shine his light into my soul, to pour down his sweet love, to comfort me. He does. How wonderful to have this awesome God we can turn to, in our darkest hour. When our hearts are torn and bleeding.

Its amazing to be loved by our heavenly Father. I read somewhere that we as humans, usually compare the heavenly father to our human fathers. Its nice when we have great dads, but when we don't... we need to realize that God is love. He will never hurt us, but heal us. I am so thankful for being found by Him and to be his daughter. It would be amazing to see Him face to face. Will you be ready when He comes again?

Sleep deprived light!

Today I am sleep deprived, groggy, and in a fog...so I will probably misspell more words then I usually do. My little baby girl, who is 3 1/2 months old, was crabby, didn't want to sleep, woke up at 1am and went back to sleep at 4:30am. She kept pushing her little chubby hands into her mouth, maybe she is teething already? Usually my kids don't get their first tooth until 10 months, but who knows? Each child is different. My 2nd child, Odelia decided that since mommy is awake anyway, she will keep crying as well to keep me extra company... :) she kept waking up, crying, and yelling at the top of her lungs 'I want mommy...', which i was trying to keep down so not to awake my oldest child, promising her things that I would give her in the morning if only she would be quiet..(candy, hot chocolate, ice cream) I am a good parent, huh? Still she kept yelling, so I decided to scare her a bit and told her that if she doesn't be quiet, I will put her outside so the mosquitoes can eat her, or I would call the police officer to come and get her, because she is disturbing the people who want to sleep! am I bad or what, oh well. Finally she fell asleep after she woke up my oldest child, Ariana. (or maybe she woke up when she heard the word hot chocolate, which she loves) Around 6:30am Ariana has woken up, marched into my bedroom and told me that its morning and she wants her hot chocolate. It took a little while to convince her that it was still too early for me to heat up hot chocolate, the kitchen will open at 9am! So you see how my night went... very exciting I am sure.

The real reason I wanted to talk about was yesterday my husband took the older girls to the church service, so I got to stay home with the baby, and after she fell asleep, I had a date with Jesus... reading my bible. I love the quiet time, so precious.

I was reading Matthew, chapter 5. Some of the verses I was meditating on were; 8,14,16 and 48.
'Ye are the light of the world'
'Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven'
'Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect'

I want to be a bright light, to shine in these dark times. I know I am far from being perfect, can anyone even get close? I believe we all can be a little more loving, a little more gentler, a little more giving, a little more friendlier, a little more helpful.. more smiles, less frown.. Help me Jesus to be what you want me to be.