Happy and sad.

Miscarriage is a sad and a happy thing. The sad part is that you loose a little darling baby, and the happy part is that you have a little angel waiting for you in heaven.

Sometime life gives us unpredictable turns and we have to go through valleys of sadness and tears. That is when the beauty around us that God created comforts our souls, eases the sadness and makes life bearable, a little bit at a time. When I got the news that I was having a miscarriage, after having 4 children, I thought that I wont be sad, but it is still pretty sad, and you feel out of control a bit lost, and things we planned will not happen. That is when I know that God is always in control, whatever happens, happens for a reason, and He is our Life, Love and Comfort.

You only have today to live.

Today is here, tomorrow is not here yet, while yesterday is gone already, and not coming back.

(a wild flower grew up in my back yard, a gift)

Live today to your fullest, enjoy your loved ones, enjoy nature, enjoy the smell of life, enjoy now.

Live your life so that when tomorrow comes you wont feel regret in how you lived today. Be kind to your husband, to your children, to your neighbor, even if you don't feel like it, smile.

Cultivate being thankful to God, to your husband, to your children, to others, even to yourself. We are truly rich in this time and age, so many people don't have what we have in abundance.

Start to count the blessings.

I will give thanks to the LORD with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds.
 ~Ps 9:1

I decided on day 6th of the New Year to start recording or writing down the everyday blessings that I see surrounding me. It is so easy to think that nothing good ever happens to me, no blessings from above, nothing to smile or be joyful about. I guess someone (devil) is really trying to make us blind, deaf and ungrateful to the Lord above, he knows how to steal, how to kill and destroy, so no wonder the joy of every morning is lost so fast in the everyday shuffle of business. Since this was my last day at work, I had to get used to a new routine. A new way of making my way, putting little stops to be thankful, to pray, to sing, to find joy and happiness in the every day.

So what am I thankful for?

1/6/12- on last day at work... Thank you Lord for:

1. cold (37 degree) morning
2. frost on my windshield
3. the darkness of early morning
4. hearing my dad's voice on my cell as I talked to him on my way to work- blessings of technology
5. a hot cup of vanilla latte on my last day to work... yum, I will miss those
6. a dog in the car next to mine, who did not bark or growl, just watched me go :) (i don't really care for dogs-they scare me)
7. happiness that comes from above
8. yummy vanilla cupcakes, with mocha frosting my coworker made for me, so sweet...:)
9. blue baby boy things that were gifted to me by my coworkers
10. being alive and pregnant, 36 weeks today! with no apparent pain or discomfort, some women have all kinds of problems in their last month, or through out their pregnancy, I feel for them.

1st day home.... dont have to get up so early....oh so sweet..:) Thank you Lord:
11. taking early morning walk, fresh air, sunshine
12. making myself and my kids awesome breakfast, sweet rolls with raspberries and strawberries
13. getting to clean and organize my house
14. being able to read and study the bible more, to listen to sermons, and beautiful music
15. getting to know my children again, its hard to do when you work full time...
16. cooking, eating, resting when ever I want or need

17. wondering and praying for baby boy to come.... hoping for a blessed birth experience

His love endures forever.

His Steadfast Love Endures Forever
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good, for his steadfast love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods, for his steadfast love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords, for his steadfast love endures forever;
4 to him who alone does great wonders, for his steadfast love endures forever;
5 to him who by understanding made the heavens, for his steadfast love endures forever;
6 to him who spread out the earth above the waters, for his steadfast love endures forever;
7 to him who made the great lights, for his steadfast love endures forever;
8 the sun to rule over the day, for his steadfast love endures forever;
9 the moon and stars to rule over the night, for his steadfast love endures forever;
10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt, for his steadfast love endures forever;
11 and brought Israel out from among them, for his steadfast love endures forever;
12 with a strong hand and an outstretched arm, for his steadfast love endures forever;
13 to him who divided the Red Sea in two, for his steadfast love endures forever;
14 and made Israel pass through the midst of it, for his steadfast love endures forever;
15 but overthrew Pharaoh and his host in the Red Sea, for his steadfast love endures forever;
16 to him who led his people through the wilderness, for his steadfast love endures forever;
17 to him who struck down great kings, for his steadfast love endures forever;
18 and killed mighty kings, for his steadfast love endures forever;
19 Sihon, king of the Amorites, for his steadfast love endures forever;
20 and Og, king of Bashan, for his steadfast love endures forever;
21 and gave their land as a heritage, for his steadfast love endures forever;
22 a heritage to Israel his servant, for his steadfast love endures forever.
23 It is he who remembered us in our low estate, for his steadfast love endures forever;
24 and rescued us from our foes, for his steadfast love endures forever;
25 he who gives food to all flesh, for his steadfast love endures forever.
26 Give thanks to the God of heaven, for his steadfast love endures forever.
~~~ Psalm 136 ~~~

Colorful life.

I love my life to have color. Color is a beautiful thing. Thank you Lord that we have eyes to see the beautiful color all around us.

~~He makes me lie down in green pastures.~~

Sometimes life is green. Green grass, green leaves, green foods. Awaiting life to change colors.

Sometimes I get to see some purple color, with light green sunshine streaming through.

~~ Her clothing is fine linen and purple.~~~

You see purple is good, especially when it turns to almost blue. Blue flowers, blue sky, blue birds.

Pink rose bud, the last of the season. Soon winter winds will blow all the petals away.

~~I am the rose of Sharon, and the lily of the valleys.~~~

The gentle beauty of yellow and white, is truly a love gift from our Lord.

~~The wings of a dove covered with silver~~~

The orange and red are truly the best colors yet! God did create everything lovely, if only we stop and open our eyes to see, open our ears to listen, to breathe in the fresh crisp air around us and truly enjoy what is right in front of us....:)

~~Let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us,

and establish the work of our hands upon us.~~

A thankful heart is a sacrifice.

I love thanksgiving , I love the family getting together, the turkey and all the trimmings that go with that. Not to mention the pie, and the caramelized apples… this year was no exception. The family members all came late to the dinner celebration, the turkey burned a little bit, the food was delicious and plentiful.. I was so full, but still had to have desserts. The kids were loud and ate too many sweets. But everything turned out just lovely and I am very thankful for another yummy Thanksgiving.

Grateful, thankful, appreciative.... are the words we use at Thanksgiving. Its good to be thankful, and we teach our children to do the same... but how do we know if it is really from the heart? I know that God does want thankfulness that is from the heart not just from our lips. There are so many things that I am thankful for each day, which means that everyday I should thank God for everything that He provides me with, not just on a Thanksgiving holiday. Here are some reminders for us from the scriptures…


I thank my God every time I remember you. {Philippians 1:3}

Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.
{Psalm 100:4}

..always giving thanks to God the Father for everything.. {Ephesians 5:20}

I will offer to you the sacrifice of thanksgiving, and will call upon the name of the Lord. {Psalm 116:17}

So if thanksgiving is a sacrifice.... well that sure makes a clear picture doesn’t it? In the old testament they used to bring animals, or birds as a sacrifice to the Lord, now God doesn’t want that from us, now He wants a different type of sacrifice. A sacrifice of thanksgiving. An offering of our selves as a living sacrifice to God.

Even the angels will bring thanksgiving to the Lord as it is written in Revelations 7:11... all the angels stood round about the throne, and fell before the throne on their faces, and worshipped God, saying Amen; Blessing, and glory, and wisdom, and thanksgiving, and honor, and power, and might, be unto our God for ever and ever... Amen.

Did I tell you I love fall?

I read somewhere that a lot of people love fall, so I guess I am not the only one...;) But seriously, what not to love. The crisp days, sunshine, rain, the beauty of the changing leaves, pumpkins, hot chocolate, fireplaces, long walks through the leaves, apples, and thanksgiving.... Yep, it sure is my favorite season.



My girls love fall as well, they can run around and not get too hot. Also they don't have to wear the hats and bulky jackets just yet.


Apples are delicious at this time of the year, especially from an apple orchard.

November trip.

I took a few days vacation from work to enjoy the last days of autumn, to get away from the big city, to enjoy my family and kiss my little ones more often.


Then on Friday my husband fell off a ladder and broke his ribs. So there goes my vacation plans. But we still got away for a day into the mountains and breathed the cold crisp air, looked at beauty and thanked God for his generosity with the colors of autumn. My husband stayed in a hotel room and rested with our 9 month old baby girl, while I went on long walks with my 5 year old, and my 2 1/2 year old. We had a nice time.

On our way back we stopped at a little river where the trees were majestically golden, after resting a bit and smelling the wonderful scent of dry leaves and grass, wet earth and rocks we continued home.

Its nice to be home and nothing makes you appreciate your own bed, and your own space as going away into a tiny hotel room, where we all had to share one room, and the not so comfortable beds of the hotel.

So everything went well, if I don’t count that the trip was cut short due to my husbands injury, my 2 year olds crying and wanting to go home in the middle of the night, my 5 year old throwing up on our way home all over my car, and the baby not wanting to sit in her car seat, and cried every time she had to sit in there.... But it was nice to get away... Thank God I am home...:)

I give thanks....

I bring the offering of my mouth to the throne of our Lord.


I thank you for the early chilly hours when my little one wakes me up, and we get to snuggle under the warm blankets in peace and contentment.

I thank you for the first steaming hot cup of coffee, to the sound of the teapot as it whistles, and the easiness of turning on the stove.

I thank you for the sweetness of my children, with all their bickering, nagging, and whining my ears get to hear.

I thank you for the easiness in doing my family's laundry, for I used to live in an apartment, where I had to go outside up and down the stairs to use a public laundry facility. Sometimes I had to wait for someone else to take their laundry out before I could do mine.

I thank you that I live in this country where everything is so much easier, like going shopping, for food, clothes, and not worrying that someone will rip you off, sell you damaged goods, or just take your money away. My parents lived through that in their country of birth... that was hard for them.

I thank you for this amazing opportunity of talking to You, for hearing me, for knowing me, for carrying my burdens. I am so happy that we can go through life with Jesus by our side... just think if He wasn’t there for us...life would be so empty and sad.

1000 gifts from up above.

I am thankful today for all the beautiful things I see and the lovely christian music I get to listen to on the radio.

I am alive... I live today, I get to see and hear and breathe... its better to be alive than dead.

I am thankful that I am married to my friend and sweetheart. Its better to be married than to be all alone.

Thankful for my three precious girls. Wonderful blessings for me to enjoy and train for the kingdom of God.

The loveliness that surrounds me when I go on vacation: sunshine, ocean, fresh breeze, sand under nit my toes.

The not so lovely things that surround me in my everyday life: the noise of the busy city, the hot dry air, the traffic, the huge garbage trucks early in the morning picking up the trash and the constantly barking dog in my neighbors yard.

I am thankful for the sunshine which is Jesus that warms my soul, who hears my every prayer, and wipes every tear away. Thank you Lord for the gifts from up above.

I am joining Ann @ Holy experience to start counting my blessings.

The busy bee..

Golden gate...

Golden gate bridge... isn't it just gorgeous?

What a busy few weeks I had. Work, family, relatives visiting from a different state, the baptism of my nephew and niece. Going to see wonderful places, and seeing the beautiful ocean... Getting up early in the mornings, and staying up late in the evenings. Registering and testing my 5 year old for kindergarten... Summer is almost over, how sad.

Now I hope the life will slow down a bit, and I can enjoy some of my blog friends...and the life you write about.:))

Today is the day!

Today is the day to be thankful for my husband, who can fix anything, who loves me even when I grumble and complain, who plays with the baby and always puts gas in my car.

Today is the day to be thankful for my 3 little girls, to admit that when we plan things like kids, our plans don't line up with Gods plans, since the baby wasn't planned, but is more of a blessing and joy all the way around.

Today is the day to be thankful for the childish, loud, protesting voices, for the little, sticky, chocolate covered hands and the constant toys all over the house.

Today is the day to be thankful for the eyesight I have, to be able to see the beauty around me, to be able to dig in the dirt and plant flowers, and smelling and eating my garden fresh tomatoes.

Today is the day to be thankful, for tomorrow may not even come.

The gray shadow of my soul...

I have been feeling a bit glum the past week, like a gray cloud hovering over my soul.. I don't know why... why this sadness, this restlessness, the tiredness, the seeking of something to quiet my soul...

I read on one of my blogger friends, that gratitude helps with sadness. Thankfulness takes away the unhappiness.

I want to try it...

I am thankful for the deepness of the blue sky... for the hot summer sun...
for the flowers... and the leaves... the wind lifting my curtains in a gentle breeze... for a child's laugh, the smile, the sweet brown eyes... the kisses, the hugs, the love... for my husband's strong embrace, for when I feel weak he is still strong...
I am thankful for the job I have, for so many are struggling financially... I am thankful for being able to see the beauty of everyday, the twilight... the yellow moon... I am thankful for my peppermint tea, and for the root beer that is so good, you can buy it at Trader Joe's. :)
I am thankful for the things I take for granted like a good night sleep, my babies health, my car, and for being able to pray and serve our God when ever we want.

The other day my oldest said to me: 'Mommy, you cook breakfast, Daddy will make tea, and we will just watch...', the faith of a child, if only we could be like that. God you take care of my life, Jesus help me everyday and I will just sit back and watch. If only our faith was like that.