The love so true-it hurts.

He loves me so much

He cheers me up when I am down

He knows my moods, my joys, my tears

He cares for me, takes care of all the things that I dont want to do myself

He forgives and forgets often

He laughs at me, and lets me laugh at him

He cares for our children

He is a strong wall where I can hide from this world

I know that he will support me, and help me with my mistakes and shortcomings

He is someone who I can ask questions and someone who listens to my answers

He is a gift from God.

But God is my true love

He knows my ways

He knows my faults

He knows my heart

He has created me

He has known me before I was born

He knows my future and my past

He lifts me up when I am down

He knows all the answers to all my questions

He knows all of my thoughts, my hopes, my wishes

He has forgiven me of all my sins, has died for me

He will come for me, when he will wipe every tear from my eye

He is the One

He is the Only

He is the Lover of my soul

His name is Jesus.

Lord and Savior.

Untill death do us part.

Marriage is two souls united into one. Some times I feel like I am not in tune with my husband, that he doesn’t understand my hearts desires, my hopes, and dreams. Its hard to understand that those hopes and dreams of mine will never come true. In realizing that some hopes of mine are just bubbles in the air, that go up and pop in the slightest breeze, makes me feel sad and sometimes angry. My dear husband gets the brunt of it.


Every girl coming into marriage brings her hopes and dreams into the union, sometimes those dreams are valid, while sometimes they could be foolish or childish. A lot of marriages fall apart due to those childish hopes, dreams, or demands on the wife’s part. Realizing that getting your way in every situation is not realistic or wise. Having a husband who is firm but loving is a blessing indeed.

Sometimes no matter what I still don’t have my way, and in those times my only strength is leaning on Jesus. He does understand me, He is the only one who can carry me through. As I said that sometimes my wishes turn into demands, that my husband doesn’t take easily to, we get into an argument, things get tense and we ignore each other… but the redeeming quality we have is that we cant ignore each other too long. We look into each other eyes, and either smile, giggle, or laugh… then we fall into each others arms and ask forgiveness. But the road to this is a long and rocky one, through many pit falls, and many tears on my part.

I used to cry so much when my husband didn’t understand me, when I though he was unloving, or didn’t behave in a certain way that I thought he should have been behaving. Those years are far behind me now, thank God, but they thought me that every person is his unique self, and shows love in his own way. I believe that each woman will learn in her marriage and grow more wise and understanding toward her husband. So that when her wishes or desires don’t come true, she realizes that her hearts desire is actually submitting to her husband and finding joy in loving Jesus, and being loved by Him in return, with an everlasting, most powerful love than any human can give. In that I find hope, love and patience to go on, to love my husband more, and in return I feel his love increase towards me, as he becomes a more godly man.

They flourish like a palm tree.....

I always loved trees... Magnificent old oak trees, a willowy, white birch trees... Green, blue spruce trees or tropical, prickly palm tree... Our God is an amazing creator, if we want to count all the species of trees there are we would never be able to remember or recollect them all. On our honeymoon almost 10 years ago, my hubby and I spend a day wandering through the San Diego's many museums, art galleries, and gardens... there was a palm tree conservatory, that collected, if I remember correctly, about 50 if not more different varieties of palm trees... so beautiful, so tropical... A palm tree always reminds me of being on a vacation... spending time on a beach, with the warm ocean lapping at my feet.... the sun, the palm trees swaying in a breeze..

'The righteous will flourish like a palm tree, they will grow like a cedar of Lebanon; planted in the house of the Lord, they will flourish in the courts of our God. They will still bear fruit in old age, they will stay fresh and green, proclaiming, the Lord is upright, He is my rock..' Psalm 92:13

'Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers...' Psalm 1:1-3

So if we seek to do right, to live with integrity, to help others, to seek God... we will be like a tree growing by the water... we would not wither and die, but live and flourish like a palm tree...:)

Sorrel soup.

Sometimes my life is so blah.... nothing seems interesting, or fun... my moods turn for the worse, and I could be difficult to live with. Hey, I admit that I could be a pain somewhere. Usually I try to see the positives of everything, try to be cheerful, and content. Some days it is just not possible. Either the kids are too cranky and wild, or my hubby is in his daily church commitments, and not home for me to lean on. Some days the sun is not shining, or it is too bright for my tired eyes. I try to pray, I try to read the bible. Sometimes I cant. Sometimes I want to run away from my life, from all the problems and struggles.

I went to see my doctor today for my first physical. Never had one before. It wasn't too bad. My blood pressure was low. Doctor wants to do some fasting labs tomorrow, to re-check the results I had when I was pregnant with my 3rd little girl. I will try to remember not to eat breakfast, or drink my coffee tomorrow morning.

With working full time, I try to simplify my life. Less things = less mess, less for me to clean up. Cook bigger portions, so we can have left-overs the next day.

Like yesterday I made a sorrel soup, with onion, potatoes, and carrots. With a hard boiled egg. We had that with tuna melt sandwiches. I wish I had a digital camera to show you the final results.
Boil sliced up potatoes in water, or chicken stock. Stir-fry shredded carrot, and onion in some olive oil until golden brown. Add chopped sorrel, carrot, onion mixture to the cooked potatoes. There should be enough liquid in the pot with all the veggies cooking to make a nice soup consistency. Add salt, black pepper to taste. Before serving, chop up a hard boiled egg into the bowl, and add a tablespoon of sour cream on top. Sprinkle some fresh herbs, like dill or parsley. Enjoy...

Today, I boiled some potatoes in skins, steamed broccoli and served them in a butter, garlic sauce. Tomorrow we can still have left-over sorrel soup, with grilled cheese sandwiches, and I also have chicken breasts de-frosting, to fry some chicken patties. For dessert we have store bought cookies, ice cream, or fruit. My hubby bought some beautiful apricots, and they are delicious. Again, too bad I don't have a digital camera, I bet you would have enjoyed the color of these beauties. Talking about food sure cheers me up, he he?? Lets talk about a chocolate cake, and I will start singing.... :))

The weather is lovely this evening, and even though I am home without my husband again, at least I have my 3 little girls with me to keep me company. I wish you a cheerful evening. Sorry about the glum beginning.